Worrying can be a natural part of a day for some people, whether they are completely healthy, living with kidney disease, or living on immunosuppressant medicine. From stressing about waking up on time, taking all of our medicine, tackling the to-do list, enduring dialysis, finishing a work project, waiting for the call that a transplant match has been found for you, or squeezing exercise into your hectic schedule. We all have different lifestyles, things that make us tic, different concerns. Some of us have every-day worries, while others have life-threatening anxieties.
These past couple weeks I have seen the worry on my parents’ faces that I saw growing up. We have triumphed over uncountable health hurdles together and it doesn’t take much to have those memories flood back into our minds. Sometimes giving us strength, while other times concern. With the complications I have had this year, it is easy to let our minds go on a tangent of skipping to the future and then wondering if things will be like the past struggles.
“Wear your tragedies as armor, not shackles.” -Anonymous
When living with PKD, a disease with no cure, there are very valid concerns. If we will follow the same family history as previous generations, if a kidney transplant is in the near future, if we passed the disease on to our children. I have taken a positive approach to dealing with these natural worries by obtaining as much knowledge of the disease, being aware of my body, aware of my health, seeing a nephrologist regularly and remaining determined to beat PKD.
“When odds seem against you keeping moving forward and remain focused. Focus is the key to your victory.” -Anonymous
There are some days where this is not any easy feat, but this week I was inspired, reminded how beautiful life is and the power of positive energy. My dear friend, Denise DelGrosso Gilliland, visited this week and shared a touching video. Her prayer group, “Tuesdays with Mary,” recently prayed for me. Denise lit tealight candles that were in the shape of ‘Valen’ and placed on a green and blue poster board in honor of Donate Life. I was overwhelmed with emotions as I watched the video capturing Denise saying a prayer for me along with the women in attendance expressing beautiful sentiments.
During that two-minute long video, my worries vanished. I was living in the moment. I felt at peace, yet very determined to get well and confident that I will. As scary as today, the future or unknowns in life may seem, it is natural to worry, but important to understand that all we have is this moment right here and now, which we should try and make the most of. The key lessons I have learned is to not dwell on my health issues or let worry consume me. Whether today consists of small or big worries, today is a new day – let’s treasure it!
“Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory.”
How do you cope with worry in your life?