We naturally possess fear of the unknown. We who have PKD know we have it, but some of us choose to live in denial with blinders on our eyes. Others muster the guts to face it head on. Those of us with PKD, or any other illness, have the choice and freedom of how we cope with our battles. I choose optimism. I live wide-eyed, seeking answers to my questions.
This week, my mind needed a break from looking at blood work labs, talking with doctors, and thinking of my endoscopy procedure this Friday. I sat on my living room floor looking at a blank corkboard in front of me, trimmed with a pretty turquoise boarder. I held scissors in my right hand and began turning the pages of several magazines. One by one I started snipping thoughts and phrases that inspired me. I cut out words that described me or attributes that I aspire to be. When I read something that is a goal of mine or that I am looking forward to in the future, I added it to the pile of words now surrounding me on the floor. I found a picture of a young blonde woman wearing an outfit that I loved. Her hand was wrapped around colored ribbons that lead upwards to a bundle of balloons. It spoke to me how her eyes were looking up toward the sky and it left me wondering what she was thinking. This was the first picture I found and the first one that I placed on my board. I then randomly tacked each snippet of inspiration around this hopeful looking woman.
For the few hours I was entertained by this project, my mind drifted off into a happy place. After I was finished, I smiled as I read all of the words placed on the “vision board.” I had collected thoughts that motivated, inspired and moved me in a special way. Such as:
-Not all strength is built in the gym.
-The big picture.
-An extra day in paradise.
-You can draw strength from others who care about you.
-Let hope redefine your beauty.
-Live life vividly.
The fun part is that only I know what each cutout means to me, why it touched me and is now on my vision board. I am a big believer in surrounding yourself with positive thoughts; positive energy and that the thoughts you put out to the world will become a reality. I now have something to look at every day to encourage me, inspire me, remind me of my goals, the things I look forward to and the type of person I aspire to be.
This fun little craft is a work in progress and something that I will continue to add to and change. It is like life, always changing and always evolving. Nothing is constant. Something can be taken away from us and things can be added to our lives. The important thing is to always be positive and focus on the beauty and inspiration around us. It was enlightening to sit back and look at my vision board to see that all of the words that spoke to me were hopeful and powerful words full of determination and zest for life. I know that there will always be health battles for me to face, but I am determined to face them with as much strength and grace as I can.
What’s on your vision board?